Lost in Lost (and a little bit late to the party)

In Season 4, Claire followed the ghost (?) of her father Christian Shephard into the jungle and left her infant son Aaron behind.  What's become of her??

In Season 4, Claire Littleton followed the ghost (?) of her father Christian Shephard into the jungle and left her infant son Aaron behind. What’s become of her??

Sometimes I wake up at 3 a.m. and  I can’t stop thinking about them.

Is Claire dead?  Who will take care of her baby?

And what about Jack?  I am sick at the thought that he has become an alcoholic and prescription drug addict.

My heart breaks for Sawyer. On the inside, he is a little boy desperate for his dead mother’s love.  On the island, he finally found a family of sorts.  And now he believes they have all perished.

I am lost in Lost.

Thanks to Netflix, I no longer watch television; I binge.  Binge watching, I’ve learned, can take over my life in the same way that a really good book can. We could eat dinner at the table and talk to each other, but doesn’t it sound like more fun to set out the picnic blanket in the family room and watch Lost?

I know that Lost is yesterday’s news.  The hit sci-fi-ish drama set on a South Pacific island debuted in 2004 and concluded with its grand finale in 2010.  (I don’t know the ending, so please don’t tell me).  I know that Lost gets increasingly convoluted and far-fetched with each season.  I know that the story line includes all kinds of loose strands that dangle and go nowhere.  Like the numbers on Hurley’s winning lottery ticket.  Those numbers keep popping up in random places and for no reason.  They may never be explained.  I know all of this, and I’m still lost in Lost.

There's definitely a connection between Sawyer and Kate, but they both seem too emotionally crippled to work as a couple.

There’s definitely a connection between Sawyer and Kate, but they both seem too emotionally crippled to work as a couple.

As with any story, the characters are to blame.  I’ve become attached to them.  Sometimes I dream about these people.  I know them well, but they remain mysterious.

Kate is strong and independent, but emotionally crippled.  Will she ever be able to sustain a relationship?  And with whom will she end up, Dr. Jack Shephard (who has his own issues), or former con artist James “Sawyer” Freeman? I can see why she has a powerful attraction to Sawyer, but I don’t see them lasting.  I hope she’ll give Jack another chance, if he conquers his demons.

Even before I knew he was the leader of the "Others," Ben made me cringe, but he's kind of grown on me; he's always got a plan and it's interesting to see what he will come up with.

Even before I knew he was the leader of the “Others,” Ben made me cringe, but he’s kind of grown on me; he’s always got a plan and it’s interesting to see what he will come up with.

Even weak-chinned Ben Linus has grown on me.  Yes, he is evil and manipulative, but he is always interesting, especially when he breaks out of his sociopath mode.

John Locke is a pendulum, unsure if he is born leader destined to for greatness, or a small-minded pathetic middle-aged man with no life.  Which way will he ultimately swing?

And how in the world did Sayyid Jarrah end up becoming Ben’s on-call assassin?

But it’s not just the people. I’m also compelled to the couch by the ready availability of the next episode.  We can stay in this world for as long as we want to.  A summer of re-runs won’t break the fictional spell.  If I had watched Lost as a “weekly” event, I would have quit watching after season 4, when only 14 episodes were made.  I know that if I had to wait weeks and months for the next episode, I would lose interest, find other things to do.  In general, I don’t watch a lot of TV, so after a while I would forget to turn the set on.

Television bingeing, I’ve realized, provides good fodder for family conversations. Sure, we could talk about politics or the Russian invasion of Crimea, but those conversations wouldn’t be as rich, or last as long. With Lost, we have this entire world to gossip about, without hurting anyone’s feelings.

We have endless conversations about the most “killable” characters, those who might die in the next season.  Sawyer, we’ve decided is killable, since he has no family and little to go back to. But I hope he survives, although I don’t know what will become of him if he leaves the island.  He’s grown so much during these months on the island.  I doubt that he wants to return to his con-man lifestyle after all he’s been through, but he only has an 8th grade education and no professional skills.  What will be he do back home?

Now, as spring calls us out of hibernation (although it did snow on April 16), we are immersed in season five.  The Oceanic Six are home.  Ben says they have to return to the island to save the others.  The plot has become more and more far-fetched.  It feels a bit like nobody expected the show to last this long and the writers were just trying to keep it going for the ratings, but I don’t care.

I think Jack Shephard will pull it together and do whatever it is the writers want him to accomplish in Season 6.

I think Jack Shephard will pull it together and do whatever it is the writers want him to accomplish in Season 6.

I want Sawyer to know that Kate is alive and well, that his large friend Hurley may live in an alternate reality but is still the same sweet Hurley.  I want somebody to find Claire and reunite her with her baby Aaron, even if doing so breaks Kate’s heart. I want Charlie to come back from the dead.

But bingeing is full of sweet sorrow.  I know it won’t last.  The series will end. Now that we are in season five, every episode feels like a small death.

From this point forward, we’re going to stretch out our viewing.  If we get a rainy Saturday, we are NOT going to watch three episodes.  Maybe just two.  After season five, The Seal (my son) wants to take a two-week break before season starting season six, so that the end doesn’t come too soon.

When we’ve finished the final episode, we’ll emerge from the family room and blink in the bright sun of May.  I’ll feel a bit wrung out, but the intensity of my relationship with these people will fade over time.  It will be a while – probably next fall – before I start something new, as I’ve learned that in bingeing, I have to let the intensity diminish before watching another series.

Next up  in our lineup is The Seal’s choice, The Walking Dead, a zombie apocalypse series now wrapping up its fourth season (about 64 episodes, with another 16 to come next year). I could be wrong, but I don’t see myself falling hard for zombies.

That’s okay, I’ll be on the rebound.  I’m looking forward to starting something serious, maybe next winter, with the 62 episodes of Breaking Bad.  I could use a fling in between.

Tiny travel, big world at the Peabody Essex Museum

I call this blog The Maniacal Traveler because I have a mania for travel in all its forms.  Visiting museums, wherever they are, is a sort of super-condensed travel, or tiny travel. The Peabody Essex Museum – established by the sea captains of Salem, Massachusetts in 1799, before the notion of a museum even existed — is a tiny travel dream because of its rich history, its amazing collection, and its innovative and quirky special exhibits.

Case in point: Recently, I pulled The Seal out of school to travel to a world of guitar-playing zebra finches in the special exhibit, from here to ear, by French artist Céleste Boursier-Mougenot.

In the exhibit, 70 or so zebra finches fly and flit around a large space and land on various Gibson Les Paul and Thunderbird bass guitars set on posts about three and a half feet off the ground.  When the finches perch and peck on the guitar strings, they make music, of a sort, in a fascinating display of human-animal collaboration.

When we visited, the birds were landing on guitars in singles and the occasional pair, and not in a flock as pictured here.  A museum staffer told us they are unpredictable in their behavior, but tend to be the most active when just a few people are in the room (photo from PEM website).

This museum photo shows the birds gathering on the guitar. When we visited, the finches landed in ones or twos on the various guitars, producing some interesting twangs. At one point, a bird pecked at a string, producing something akin to a song. A museum staff member explained that sometimes the birds are more interested in perching and pecking than other times, but what they choose to do is very random (photo from PEM website).

This exhibit, a perfect hook for getting a teenager into the PEM, was pure delight.  After a 30-minute wait, we were led into the aviary-like space where the zebra finches flit about, hang out in their small basket condos, or hop around on the floor.  At times I had to be careful not to step on a bird, although I’m guessing that the finches are adept at avoiding feet.

Finches flew so close to my head that I could feel the wind generated by their flight on my cheek.  At one point, a female pecked at my leather shoes and, finding them hospitable, hopped onto the top of my foot, and began to groom herself.  She hung out there for about five minutes, while a group of males clustered below and chirped for her attention.

No filming or photos of the exhibit are permitted, but this clip from a similar exhibit that Boursier-Mougenot mounted at the Barbican Centre in London shows the birds in their most active mode:

I’m sorry to say that this special exhibit ends on April 13 (and the free-but-timed tickets have been sold out on weekends for a long time), but I will look for Celeste Boursier-Mougenot  and birds in the future, wherever they may land.

I especially liked how the exhibit challenges our ideas about “art.” We often say that we want “out-of-the-box thinking” to build things and solve problems, but when we encounter  such thinking in the world of art, we often dismiss it as gimmick or nonsense. Kudos to Boursier-Mougenot  and his birds for their playful work in breaking the boundaries of artistic boxes.

A related exhibit, “Beyond Human: Artist-Animal Collaborations,” remains open through September. This exhibit features the work of photographer William Wegman, well-known for his whimsical photos of his Weimaraner dogs with costumes and props, as well as that of more obscure artists who do things like work with hissing cockroaches that “paint pictures” or play a Japanese flute in harmony with howling wolfs.  (The artists adhere to specific ethical guidelines in working with their animal collaborators).

William Wegman's "Platform Shoes", 2008, (PEM website).

William Wegman’s “Platform Shoes”, 2008 (PEM website).

My favorite here was German artist Corinna Schnitt’s short video of a floor-level view of animals mingling in the her living room: cows, goats, a donkey, ducks, a parakeet, a cockatoo, a rabbit, and the family cat.  In the background, a llama seemed to be raiding the kitchen.  The exhibition note explained the video might stimulate us to think about our own interactions in similar spaces.

I’m not sure if the film made me think more deeply about mingling at a cocktail party, but it sure was fun.  The ducks seemed like little busybodies, butting into the business of the goats and disturbing the zen of the rabbit.  The cow, frankly, seemed out of her element, especially when she tried to horn in on a conversation between two goats.  The cat calmly sat on a chair, perhaps observing the behavior of her fellow creatures, or perhaps wishing they would all go home.  Now that I think about it, I have been to a few parties like that.

The collections at the PEM originally were generated by the 18th and 19th century world travels of Salem’s sea captains, and include art and artifacts the Far East, the South Pacific, and the Alaskan coast that were preserved and cataloged long before any other Western institution recognized these items as art.

Sir William Pepperrell, painted by John Smibert (sometimes Smybert) in 1746.

Sir William Pepperrell, painted by John Smibert (sometimes Smybert) in 1746.

For me, there’s something amazing and wonderful about looking at art or objects that connect me to the distant past. (I wish I could touch them, but understand why I can’t). In the first floor American Art gallery, the massive 1746 John Smibert portrait of Sir William Pepperrell, the hero of 1745 siege of Louisbourg and  a one-time “king of Kittery,” took my breath away, even if the gallery security guards drew a blank when I asked where his portrait was located. William who?

William had stood for this portrait, had looked at it, had touched it.  At one point, the portrait had hung (I think) in his home–just down the road from my house! And now I was meeting it, in the flesh (in a manner of speaking).

The Yin Yu Tang Chinese house at the PEM deserves its own post, but I will mention it here.  Almost by happenstance, in the late 1990s, when the Museum had an unusual  opportunity to purchase, transport, and rebuild a 200-year-old traditional village merchant’s house, they grabbed it, as part of an ongoing effort to facilitate cultural understanding of China.

In the late 18th century, the house had been carefully assembled in a very complex Lego-like fashion, with each piece carefully labelled.  In 1997-98, museum staffers and their Chinese collaborators carefully disassembled the house down to the last timber, tile, and brick, then transported it in 19 containers to Japan, then to New York, and then by truck to Salem, where it was rebuilt (over several years time) on the Museum grounds. It opened to the public in 2003.

Yin Yu Tang reflects 200 turbulent years of Chinese history, right down to a circa 1960s small speaker that was installed by the government in one of the main rooms to broadcast news and propaganda to the occupants several times a day.

Two lion carvings on the front of the house, intended to ward off evil spirits, were deliberately defaced by the owners during the Cultural Revolution of the late 1960s so as not to attract the attention of authorities who had outlawed such carvings as superstitious.

A wealthy and unloved relative who had taken over certain rooms as payment for a debt was relegated to the second floor after the Communists gave his rooms to two peasant families.  This man, disliked by his relatives for his mean-spirited personality and castigated as an evil “landlord” by the Communists, died of hunger in the house during the famine of 1960.

The website devoted to Yin Yu Tang offers a great preview as well as detailed information about the house, its inhabitants, and the disassembly/reconstruction process.

Thus, in one day, I traveled to a world of esoteric music and animal art, to colonial Kittery, and to China, and even made a quick stop in California circa 1920-1965, to an exhibit on the art and influence of California design.  I spent two hours (roundtrip) in my car, and, thanks to my library pass, $10 on admission fees (kids under 16 are free).  A big world for tiny travel and a good day’s of journey for a maniacal traveler.

Jill Kinmont, my forgotten hero

I remember the swishing sound of skis as she pulled up in front of the camera. Blond hair,  blue eye, a big smile.

“My name is Jill Kinmont, and I ski!” she announced, providing both an introduction and an implicit invitation to a 13-year-old girl:  “How about if you join me?”

It was 1975, and I had just met skier Jill Kinmont, as played by the actress Marilyn Hassett in the television movie, The Other Side of the Mountain.

Jill Kinmont on the January 31, 1955 cover of SI.

Jill Kinmont on the January 31, 1955 cover of SI.

In 1955, Jill Kinmont was the premier woman skier in the U.S. and almost a sure bet for the Olympics.  With her ever-present smile, good looks, and sunny personality, Jill was the darling of the ski world.  On January 31, 1955, Sports Illustrated featured her on its cover, which in itself is pretty amazing.  (Aside from its bathing suit issue, how often does SI feature a woman athlete on its cover today?)

But three days before the magazine hit newsstands, Jill’s Olympic dreams died at Alta, Utah, when she crashed into a tree during a race and broke her neck. Jill was paralyzed from the shoulders down, and would remain in a wheelchair for the rest of her life.

In the mountains this spring, I’ve been thinking about Jill, almost 40 years after I “met” her through the television movie and an “as-told-to” book originally titled A Long Way Up: The Jill Kinmont Story (but later retitled The Other Side of the Mountain).

The Other side of the MountainI didn’t grow up in a skiing family. Even if we’d had the money for skiing, my parents weren’t skiers.  But after seeing and reading The Other Side of the Mountain, I knew I HAD to start skiing.

Even though Jill’s ski career ended with a terrible fall, she made skiing seem like something thrilling and liberating.  Her passion for the sport was infectious. Like her, I wanted to fly down those slopes and feel the wind rushing through my hair.  I didn’t want to lean in and become a corporate executive or president.  I wanted to lean into the snow and become Jill Kinmont.

That winter, when our church began offering ski trips to Vermont, I was the first to sign up.  Two or three times each season, forty teenagers and Father Brown packed into a rented school bus and pulled out of the parking lot at 6 a.m. for the three-hour trip to Mount Hogback, Vermont (now one of the many “Lost Ski Areas of New England”).

Very few of us knew how to ski. None had ever taken lessons. But, wearing our jeans and winter coats, we would snap into our rented skis and plummet down the trails at Hogback.

At least one kid came home from each trip wearing a cast or splint on an arm or leg.  I think Father Brown must have spent most of his ski day at the first aid station or the emergency room in Brattleboro.

At our junior high, Mr. Hannigan and Mr. LeVangie organized a ski club that provided another opportunity for sailing down mountains, at places like the now-defunct Tenney Mountain.  By high school, we were ready for the big leagues: overnight ventures to Mount Orford in Quebec and to Sugarloaf, Maine.  By then, we had learned to ski (although usually not well), so the teachers could ski rather than take kids to the emergency room.

Skiing had an almost sacred appeal to many teenagers in our mostly blue-collar section of town.  Families were large and houses small.  Skiing was freedom, wild and uncluttered.   We loved it, even when we broke our arms and legs.  A cast was a badge of honor.

Lacking the required athletic ability as well as ready access to skiing, I never did become an Olympic skier. But today, forty years after my encounter with Jill, I still can’t wait to snap into my skis.

Still, every time I go to a ski area, I continue to be amazed that this industry exists: that thousands of people are willing to spend money to go to very cold places to sail down steep mountain slopes, with no seat belt.  If skiing wasn’t already established, and you tried to sell the idea on Shark Tank, the sharks would laugh you out of the studio.

Some criticize skiing as elitist, expensive, and environmentally unfriendly. There is some truth to all of that, but anyone who skis on a regular basis knows that skiers come from all income brackets (although, admittedly, the crowds aren’t very racially or ethnically diverse). Skiers become minimum-wage ski bums to pursue their passion, or they sleuth out deals and brown-bag it.  Like travelers, skiers will spend their last dime on a lift ticket and not regret it.

Today, when I read about Jill Kinomnt’s life, I am struck by how young she was — just 17 — when she was injured.  Although she vowed to walk and ski again, it didn’t happen.  I wonder what moments of sadness The Other Side of the Mountain overlooked, and how Jill mourned the loss of that freedom.

Jill Kinmont Boothe died at age 75 in February 2012, in Carson City, Nevada.   Although she endured many losses in her life, she lived a rich full life.  She became a reading teacher and an artist.  She attended ski events at her “home” mountain, Mammoth, in southern California, and at other places. She continued to smile.

Some might view Jill’s accident as a cautionary tale of what happens to a girl when she pushes too close to the edge.  I never did.  Instead, Jill’s story was an invitation to pursue passions. Take risks.  Dare to to do things.

She is my forgotten hero.

Thinking about Jill on a recent afternoon at Bethel's Sunday River, which will probably be open with good conditions until early May. Note lack of gloves!

Thinking about Jill on a recent afternoon at Bethel’s Sunday River, which will probably be open with good conditions until early May. Note lack of gloves!

Additional information:

Read more about Jill in her 2012 obituary in the Los Angeles Times.  Also, her one-time coach, and the founder/developer of Mammoth Mountain, Dave McCoy, has a wonderful collection of photos at his website, Dave McCoy Photography.